“I am content; that is a blessing greater than riches; and he to whom that is given need ask no more.” -Henry Fielding
“They say time heals all wounds, but that presumes the source of the grief is finite”
― Cassandra Clare, Clockwork Prince
I shared my story with the world, not knowing most did not earn the right to hear it.
So sick of being made to feel guilty because of my body. What is between my legs is no one’s goddamn business.
“Small steps may appear unimpressive, but don’t be deceived. They are the means by which perspectives are subtly altered, mountains are gradually scaled, and lives are drastically changed.”
― Richelle E. Goodrich, Making Wishes: Quotes, Thoughts, & a Little Poetry for Every Day of the Year
I am Agnostic. It is not some wishy-washy, simply shrugging one’s shoulders and saying, “I don’t know.” It is a long, hard look at whether there is a God or not and honestly saying, “I just don’t have all of the information necessary to truly know.”
I have been criticized for not taking a stand, as a shaman. Most believe if I am to be a shaman I must know. But that is not the truth. I am a shaman who has travelled beyond the simple yes or no, black or white.
The true shaman must traverse the mystical. I am who I am, limited knowledge and I must be at peace with that, knowing that each day, each moment changes and I may “know” something completely different tomorrow.
“God had brought me to my knees and made me acknowledge my own nothingness, and out of that knowledge I had been reborn. I was no longer the centre of my life and therefore I could see God in everything.”
― Bede Griffiths
“send the young shaman,
for he does not know
the task for which he’s been sent
and so, in his innocence
he accomplishes it”
“Bran thought about it. ‘Can a man still be brave if he’s afraid?’
‘That is the only time a man can be brave,’ his father told him.”
― George R.R. Martin, A Game of Thrones
The new age tells me I should have no fear. Anyone who tells me I should have no fear does not know the nature of the work of the shaman. There is fear every time I journey, every time I work in trance. There has to be some level of fear to respect the power of this work as I may not come back.
“Fear doesn’t shut you down; it wakes you up”
― Veronica Roth, Divergent
“The goal is to live
with godlike composure
on the full rush of energy,
like Dionysus riding the leopard,
without being torn to pieces.” —Joseph Campbell