I don’t get into the whole “observing self” thing. I strive instead for the state of passion created by my work. I find the experience more spiritual if I lose myself in the work. I become the medium. The “mindfulness” (a state of active, open attention on the present) taught by some spiritual teachers doesn’t allow for the full freedom of being in the moment. To truly be in the moment I have to merge with it—melt into it. As the performer I cannot sit in the audience.
Perhaps I don’t understand mindfulness as it is taught. It just doesn’t feel right to me.