…Truly I tell you, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you.-Matthew 17:20
I had to go to wonderland to find the answers. I’ve been overanalyzing everything and this was causing immense pain. Everyone “helping” me told me I had to go through the depression, pain, schizophrenia. They wanted to “work on it” by regurgitating everything I had already experienced. This was causing tremendous pain.
I was holding on to the things of the past instead of letting go.
What I had to do was to look at each new day as a promise of something new. Let go of the pain…let it go. Look forward instead of back. I had to stop visualizing depression, schizophrenia and pain as a mountain I am climbing. I already climbed it.
I had to travel beyond the present moment. In the present moment I was stuck in a muck of depression and schizophrenia—immense soul pain. I had to command the mountain to move…it is moving and I am moving forward.