Monthly Archives: December 2016

Out of Nothingness…

Posted by Michael's Wingman on December 24, 2016

“God had brought me to my knees and made me acknowledge my own nothingness, and out of that knowledge I had been reborn. I was no longer the centre of my life and therefore I could see God in everything.”
― Bede Griffiths

THE JOURNEY

This is a documentation of my journey—the good, bad and ugly. I’m not hiding anything to seem enlightened or self-actualized. This journey is mine and I’ve done a lot of work on myself over the years. I may seem lost, misguided but it is my trip to make. I’m not here to impress or convince anyone that I am a shaman. I don’t need validation or accolades. I’m here to share and offer friendship.

"This is the story of how I never stopped running.
This is the story of how,
when the wolves knocked,
I met them at the door
and I became the beast, instead."
— Ashe Vernon, from “Little Red,” Belly of the Beast

"The most authentic thing about us is our capacity to create, to overcome, to endure, to transform, to love and to be greater than our suffering."—Ben Okri

“My goal is to always come from a place of love...but sometimes you just have to break it down for a motherfucker.”― RuPaul

“I am a forest, and a night of dark trees: but he who is not afraid of my darkness, will find banks full of roses under my cypresses.”
― Friedrich Nietzsche, Thus Spoke Zarathustra

“And I felt like my heart had been so thoroughly and irreparably broken that there could be no real joy again, that at best there might eventually be a little contentment. Everyone wanted me to get help and rejoin life, pick up the pieces and move on, and I tried to, I wanted to, but I just had to lie in the mud with my arms wrapped around myself, eyes closed, grieving, until I didn’t have to anymore.” ― Anne Lamott, Operating Instructions: A Journal of My Son's First Year

"The dark dangerous forest is still there, my friends. Beyond the space of the astronauts and the astronomers, beyond the dark, tangled regions of Freudian and Jungian psychiatry, beyond the dubious psi-realms of Dr. Rhine, beyond the areas policed by the commissars and priests and motivations-research men, far, far beyond the mad, beat, half-hysterical laughter… the utterly unknown still is and the eerie and ghostly lurk, as much wrapped in mystery as ever."― Fritz Leiber

I Found My Ayami…

"What truly is logic? Who decides reason? My quest has taken me to the physical, the metaphysical, the delusional, and back. I have made the most important discovery of my career—the most important discovery of my life. It is only in the mysterious equations of love that any logic or reasons can be found."—From the Film “A Beautiful Mind”

My Other Blogs

Insane Medicine Man
Michael's Wingman and the Beloved

The study of the mind is interesting and can teach us much. But the mind is not the end all, be all and we miss out on the spiritual aspect of life when we are consumed with “shadow work” and psychology.

There have been many times when my heart corrected my mind.

A man in control of his mind is to be respected but a man in control of his spirit is a force to be reckoned with.

Blogs I Follow

Trauma and Dissociation
Quicksandwalker
Self-realization
BUILDING THE BRIDGE
Wild Truth
kivatransitions.blogspot.com
Brett Newcomb, MA, LPC
Witch in the Woodlands
fragments of life
Unzip.
Discussing Dissociation
AN INTERIOR JOURNEY
Journey Till Dawn
All That Glows
Shirley TwoFeathers
Mental Health Writers' Guild
Shapeshifters: Living With Dissociation
Breaking The Borderline
thediaryofadysthymicgirl.blogspot.com/2013/08/in-full-bloom.html
Two Spirits
paranoidschizophreniainfo
Typically Atypical
Moze Pray
Beth Warstadt
The Abuse Expose' with Secret Angel
Everything Matters: Beyond Meds
Millennial Leadership
no more free rent
Voices of Recovery
Diary Of A Crazy Chick
Black Women Have It Going On
THE CULTIVATION OF BEAUTY
Spiritual Emergency
The Awesomely Devine Aneurysm Blowing Wisdom of Benignjamin...
Dizgraceland
The Psychopomp Garden

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Warning Signs of Schizophrenia…

Warning signs that may indicate someone is heading toward an episode of schizophrenia include:

-Social isolation and withdrawal

-Irrational, bizarre or odd statements or beliefs

-Increased paranoia or questioning others' motivations

-Becoming more emotionless

-Hostility or suspiciousness

-Increasing reliance on drugs or alcohol (in an attempt to self-medicate)

-Lack of motivation

-Speaking in a strange manner unlike themselves

-Inappropriate laughter

-Insomnia or oversleeping

-Deterioration in their personal appearance and hygiene

While there is no guarantee that one or more of these symptoms will lead to schizophrenia, a number of them occurring together should be cause for concern, especially if it appears that the individual is getting worse over time. This is the ideal time to act to help the person (even if it turns out not to be schizophrenia).

Go All the Way…

“If you're going to try, go all the way. Otherwise, don't even start. This could mean losing girlfriends, wives, relatives and maybe even your mind. It could mean not eating for three or four days. It could mean freezing on a park bench. It could mean jail. It could mean derision. It could mean mockery--isolation. Isolation is the gift. All the others are a test of your endurance, of how much you really want to do it. And, you'll do it, despite rejection and the worst odds. And it will be better than anything else you can imagine. If you're going to try, go all the way. There is no other feeling like that. You will be alone with the gods, and the nights will flame with fire. You will ride life straight to perfect laughter. It's the only good fight there is.”― Charles Bukowski, Factotum

Dissociative Identity Disorder…

A. Disruption of identity characterized by two or more distinct personality states, which may be described in some cultures as an experience of possession. The disruption of marked discontinuity in sense of self and sense of agency, accompanied by related alterations in affect, behavior, consciousness, memory, perception, cognition, and/or sensory-motor functioning. These signs and symptoms may be observed by others or reported by the individual.

B. Recurrent gaps in the recall of everyday events, important personal information, and/or traumatic events that are inconsistent with ordinary forgetting.

C. The symptoms cause clinically significant distress or impairment in social, occupational, or other important areas of functioning.

D. The disturbance is not a normal part of a broadly accepted cultural or religious practice. Note: In children, the symptoms are not better explained by imaginary playmates or other fantasy play.

E. The symptoms are not attributable to the physiological effects of a substance (e.g., blackouts or chaotic behavior during alcohol intoxication) or another medical condition (e.g., complex partial seizures).

Trauma and Dissociation

Hotlines

National Suicide Prevention Lifeline 1-800-273-TALK (8255)
Suicide Hotlines

“Piglet sidled up to Pooh from behind. "Pooh?" he whispered. "Yes, Piglet?" "Nothing," said Piglet, taking Pooh's hand. "I just wanted to be sure of you.” ― A.A. Milne, Winnie-the-Pooh

Sites of Interest

Joseph Campbell Foundation
Northern-Tradition Shamanism
The Alchemy Website

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